Marginalized

I don’t fit in.

I am from a different area.

I think differently.

I have a different faith structure.

My culture does not accept your culture.

We need to be more open-minded about our relationships. These feelings and thoughts marginalize communities. We need to befriend the potential in human relationships. They matter and so do you!!!

Responsiblity

We have responsibilities of life and generally we handle them. There are times when responsibility becomes too much. The challenge is knowing when. This society makes it almost impossible to know when as they continue to throw us into the World of Schedules. We become over-responsible and lose focus.

I, right now, am managing 4 jobs plus. I struggle to remember the needs that matter like appointments and healthy concerns. I struggle to remember the bills that are coming due and the limits of my income. I struggle to find time to just let myself embrace the simply pleasure of a book, listen to a good discussion, or be with friends. I feel over-responsible in adulthood.

How does effect the World today? People have little time to engage each other and talk without connection. I feel like the responsibilities override the human being and we become these responsibilities. We cannot be human and live only through these. We cannot simply engage each other and be together.

Wouldn’t it be nice to just be responsible for spiritual happiness of the community and self? Wouldn’t it be nice to just stop and be responsible to moments of laughter and love, growth and learning, and just being? Responsibility is has many layers and I miss this one the most…

Birth

We are ALL capable of birth.

We ALL create life.

We are ALL mother and father.

The potential we have to share is unlimited.

Today is the day, WE give birth to ourselves.

Today is the day, WE see our strength in ourselves.

We share what WE have, and We ALL give birth to many.

(Inspired by Congregation Beth El of North Bethesda, Day 2 Rosh Hashanah Service, year 5780)

Words

We live our lives and we learn to speak. Our community gives us language. Our community can make us or break us by words. Words have power.

My story is more of words breaking me. These words become these viruses that grew until I could successfully destroy any successes I even had. I thought it funny the comments of my own simply-ness. It was only this summer when I turned 53 that my friend, Eve, requested that I stop tearing myself down. I was grateful for her honesty. I was grateful those words were silenced.

My new normal is to use those words in reverse. It is a challenge to accept that the failure you were is the success of the future. That spiritual mountain is easily climbed when the message is about your potential. The struggle is real to remain in my new normal because those old words still live in the memory. The override is to see hope in a sea of storm clouds. Those old words get smaller and they change, and then become a butterfly that carries the new words into your universe.

My new word is overwhelming. I’m overwhelmed by the overwhelming encouragement, support, guidance, presence, and love I have experienced. Words have power, How are you using your words?

My Church Community Experience

I'm reflecting on my church experience. I've attended church on and off since I was a child. I attended some form of church between the ages of 5 and 19 intermittently. I took a break from church and returned in my mid-30s. I have attended church regularly since my mid-30s.

Here are some of my reflections of church that I can recall and present. My church in College Park discussed the state of the country and the communities around us. I learned that it was okay to have women talk about the state of our country and the communities around us.

When I returned to church later on in life I had a completely different experience and that one was one of judgment. They look upon me as a single woman and several Church communities try to get me into they're dating groups. I was content to be single and I'm still contend to be single and God use a single people as well as married people.

After surfing many churches and having many experiences, I finally found Evolve which originally was M3C. They turned everything I ever knew into something completely wonderful and shared community. They woke up the discussions I had at that church in College Park. They enhanced the experiences I had at AACC through they're open ended questions at Bible study. Evolve found a beautiful community joined it and that Community was the United Church of Christ of Annapolis.

This experience opened up everything I could have imagined and it made me question what other Church communities are doing. This little church is out there and asking people open up the discussion. We know God is still speaking and we hope other Church are doing the same thing.

My question is a simple one and I look forward to answers. Maybe it's two questions ...
What is your church community doing for the community beyond your microcosm community? What risks are you willing to take that shows your faith in humanity has not failed but is growing? I welcome open discussion...

(Originally a Facebook post)

Reflections after The Lynching Memorial in Annapolis, September 7th

Yesterday it was stunning to see how many people that were White attended the Lynching Memorial in Annapolis. That tells me that the White Community wants to acknowledge the past. I would like to address and discuss issues but the problem is so much of the past is still alive. Everyday I fight the systemic racism that I was raised with. I remember the comments made by my parents and people in my community. As an adult, I've had to learn to adjust my language and my actions to be more open.

I wish this openness could be more prevalent. I wish the systemic racism in this country could be broken. I wish that the repeated racial violations in this country and in the world would stop. All we are doing is continuing a legacy of hatred and mistrust. We want to know why our communities aren't getting along and we question it like we don't know.

The solution is this and it is not a simple solution. The white community need to discuss the truth about the systemic racism. The black community needs to come out of the safety I'm talking amongst themselves and make it known. The two need to get together and yes it will get heated. Yes it will get ugly but if people listen and acknowledge reality and the fact that in 2019 these ideas are still prevalent perhaps...

I know I for one would like to feel that systemic racism should not be a problem. I know my battle with my family history and I would hope that in the most segregated hour which is today in our churches that we break some of the unspoken truths that need to come out. We say we're Communities of Faith and yet all these Communities of Faith are not coming together and talking. Churches are where so many actions began. We need to break down these walls and practice the openness that the first faith in the world principal is and will always be which is LOVE.

(This was posted on Facebook on Sunday, Sept. 8th)

Openness

We seek what we know. We seek who we know and risking going to a new opportunity is challenging.

Question the World around you, No or Yes?

See with your spirit not what they want you to see.

Seek out the opportunities that will grow your spirit to see the inner you.

March to the rhythm of the heavens and Earth.’

Let today be a new beginning.

We all were strangers once!

Thank you for your openness!

New Year...

We celebrate New Year’s Day and yet to me it seems that we celebrate a New Year at the end of Summer. The World needs to understand what a new year is. It could be many days. The examples could be the following events: birthdays, anniversaries, births, deaths, moves or moving, promotions, and changes in life.

What makes a year new is not an event but how we see the World we live in. Our view could change by who we are with or how is the relationship, family or friend, is going. It is my hope that my New Year is the “path not yet taken (Frost)” as I need to see what my possiblities and not my past.

Welcome to your New Year and may the changes that are happening be an investment into possibilities unknown. We have many opportunities that we cannot miss. Open yourself up and see your World blossom.

Waves

My seas are rough and challenges call my name,

But I know not how to answer

but my oars still work…

I know calm waters will come

but rough seas mean change is coming.

I must embrace these changes

and through the storm…

The sun will rise and the rainbow will be

the beauty of over the broken waters.

The dolphins with swin and sing

the song of the Universe

and I too will sing

Once my rough seas calm

and I can embrace the moment

of my calling in the Universe.

Riding the wave…  Location: Crownsivlle, MD

Riding the wave…

Location: Crownsivlle, MD

Love

Love is something not so easily discussed these days yet it is the foundation to breaking groundless hate. This was something that stuck me at Shabbat on August 10th. The frank discussion over the state of the nation, world, and community is general was refreshing and honest. The willingness of people to see beyond the groundless hate (Sinat Chinam) and look at the solution was needed.

The conclusion was love, understanding, acceptance, and diversity is the core to changing groundless hate. We are all have the ability to share the blessing of ourselves with each other. We need to understand the strength of the heart is greater than these continuing acts against love.

Practice ceaseless love (ahavat chinam) and be ready and willing to be that person that sees the power of ceaseless love and use that love wastefully. Love can only grow when it is done so and groundless hate will lose its strength.

Open Doors

We spend our lives not trying doors. We assume they are locked to us. We assume have no right to enter as we know the choices we had in the past could force them closed. We believe society with our placement in it. We see through their eyes and not our own.

When we decide we are tired of all the “locked” doors, we try them and our own doubts make them locked to us. We feel the injustice and it travels into the core of our being. We fight the desire to not open the “locked” doors. We fight the words embedded into us of why we can’t open the “locked” doors.

This fight, the desire, is the faith in ourselves coming to life. The fight is the spirit of our creator, calling us to do the work of the Universe. It is self-love that grows and reminds us we are not our doubts but our strengths instilled by our creator. It is only then that these “locked” doors open. It is then you see the beauty and strength of you.

Chapters

Time marches

You see a piece yourself

Changing into someone different -

The chapter is closing…

The new chapter begins…

Don’t fear it

Trust the journey

and watch the chapters change.

Growth is a beautiful thing…

Photo: Short Mountain Rio, WV Lot 7

Photo: Short Mountain Rio, WV Lot 7

Slience Calling...

Silence Calling…

Like a song in the night

in harmony in the stars

Silence Calling…

Like the purr of a cat

warming your lap

Silence Calling…

Like the breath of a rainbow

dancing in the sky

Silence Calling…

Like the prayers of the spirit

calling our creator

Silence Calling… (repeat)

Inspiration from playing on piano keys after service…Sunday 7/21

The Scream

That moment inside of you when your voice becomes this twisted sound like that of the walls closing in and there is no way out.  You know what it is and understand it is growth.  Growth is not only in our bodies but also in our spirit.  We cannot sit in the same place day after day and not be affected by growth.  Yet so many hear that scream and let it scream into silence. 

My scream is to speak out and not on the page.  My story is screaming at me.  It seeks to be alive and as I seeks life, I find life.  My eyes see the lost screams who have covered it, they think it is noise.  I feel and see their “noise” and I do no want to see the scream as being noise.  I want to listen and respect it, and use it to be the vehicle of change.

Change is so important to the growth of the Universe.  The Universe is a massive opportunity to embrace the idea of human connectivity.  Yet we continue to scream over each other.  Our individual screams do the same thing.  It needs to stop.  We need to stop! 

  The screaming will only continue if we don’t listen.  The screaming is the knowledge there is more.  Let that more come out and be.  It understands the power of growth and change, and it pushes you to be where and who you need to be.  Listen and take the risk; be present in the opportunity that the Universe is offering.

Footnote: Prayer is a way that we listen our screaming, and prayer is growth and change.  

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The moment when my scream was silenced and I was listening, and when prayer was my scream.  The words came!

Winds of Change

The wind blows over you and you feel the breeze. It is a sweet smell that dances into your being. You feel it’s call and follow the it. The revolution speaks and you know the journey as you have felt it. You feared to follow!

You climb the wind and follow it in your mind. Your mind knows the moment and embraces it. Your mind knows the plan and the fearful being must address the caged feeling that grows. Your being no longer wants to stare at the purple triangles or the open sky, and wonder.

The winds of change can come in the smallest of moments, and those moments can grow into infinity opportunities. If you ride that wind, the fearfulness will appear and tell you to return to purple triangles and open sky as they are only dreams.

If you ride that wind, trust its sweetness and travel into the purple triangles, letting your mind travel through the red and blue making purple come to life. If you follow beyond the purple triangle, let the open sky carry you. Put your fingers out and feel the wet paint of change. Put your being in the wind and fly through the open sky and talk with the clouds.

The winds of change knows your name and whispers are now songs. Trust the change and the clouds will share their secrets. The bright light will shine and fearfulness will see the winds of change as universal love. Follow, ride, touch, feel, and see…the Winds are Calling!

September 9th, 2017 by Erine Sedicum

September 9th, 2017 by Erine Sedicum

Making Our Journey

WE

Plan

Focus

Develop tools

Learn lessons

Seek growth

Change

Treasure time

Enlist support

Reflect

Receive new ideas

Build new thoughts

Accept human diversity

Know the power of our positions

Love

Are present

Encourage strength

Use vision

Seek hope

Explore possiblities

We are important in life’s journey!

We are the village and the village has come…

We cannot let ourselves get lost.

We must make our journey.

We must make our journey!

Music

Music is powerful and one line can say it all:

I will raise you up on eagle’s wing

My blue boat home

Sing, Sing a song

Country roads take me home

You with the sad eyes

i hope you dance

How sweet the sound

Call me, Call line

I see your true colours

A candle in the wind

Chances are when I wear a silly grin

Blue, blue, blue suede shoes

Let it be, Let it be

Let me hide myself in thee

You can have a good meal

Tomorrow night, tomorrow night

Let the sun shine

Climb every mountain

You look happy to meet me

It’s my party

Father, Son, and Holy Ghost

The day the music died.

Music is everything and we all need it…

Come, Come whomever you are

Wonder, worshiper, and lover of leaving

Ours is no caravan of despair

Come yet again come <3

Please enjoy music…

And make more <3

Some Mountains

Some mountains we climb by choice

because we want something better…

Some mountains we have no choice

because that is a fact of life…

What we need to do

is not fear asking for -

Asking for HELP or a hand up.

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Disconnection

A million voices screaming in unity and no one is listening to anyone: We are all focused on ourselves and our own pain and struggle. We cannot hear that we need each other.

Chris and I were discussing disconnect as a general discussion. We came to one central point and that was the challenges of disconnection. The one point was the challenges of a single woman with disabilities and a single mother with disabilities caring for children who also have disabilities. We discussed that we live in disconnection and that we are a self-supporting system. While we have the emotional support of the community, practical support is absent so much of the time. But, practical support is what we truly need.

We do not have the luxury of a two-parent household, extended family, or Community Support for our daily nurturing. We understand the challenges and face the million voices alone. When we attempt to discuss are disconnected we come up with misunderstanding because of the additional support mechanisms that single individuals or single parents do not receive. We were left trying to figure out how we could get people to understand our challenges and how our challenges affect relationships around us. Even attempting to show others what we must handle on a regular basis overwhelms them and they pull back rather than understanding how they might offer support. Even asking for help often is met with general recommendations rather than personal offers or personal connections that might solve the issue.

In reflecting on our conversation, Wednesday morning, I recalled the statement of another friend who said that there is no such thing as being disconnected. The problem is we are overly connected to things that blind us to those needed connections and it is worse than any disease that medical science can come up with. It breaks the fibers that build the foundation of love. The disconnect causes people to not see the strength and beauty of love, therefore Humanity is getting lost. Disconnection closes the foundation of love. The questions that came to my mind were who is willing to open up and listen to the millions of voices screaming in unison and understand the challenges of disconnection.

Who is willing?

Thank You

Thank you is underestimated.  People don’t stop to be thankful for each other.  We need more of this.

Here is my “Thank You” List:
1. My church community for being presence in my life and helping to ground me. (Evolve & UCCA)
2. Wayne Schwandt for sharing his reflections and Original Blessing.
3. Eve and John Hurwitz for being friends that became chosen family.
4. Friends that make me see that friendship is not need based but spiritually based.
5. Chris Wilson for her open ear even with her busy schedule.
6. Family that is in present in spirit.  
7. The opportunity of many people that pass through that I will never know.
8. Those who have passed that remind me my journey is one I need to keep alive.
9. The random moments of when all you can do is embrace and learn.
10.  The divine-ness of the Universe for the awe of this.

Thank You <3 <3 <3